"Everything that has a beginning, has an end"
Cliched but profound, and in my case prophetic. I created this blog to chronicle my inevitable descent into the abyss. I have a purpose, or one could say purposes with regards to this endeavor. I want to relay to those whom I love exactly what was happening in my mind when I decided to return to nothingness. I chose the path of my own free will and nothing influenced me to. Quite the contrary it was things that delayed the inevitable. Hopefully there will be enough in here to adequately explain the why. I hope that the four pillars of my existence forgive me for being what they may be told afterwards about my being weak and selfish. I want them to know it was not weakness, though I admit the selfishness, but the weariness and heaviness this existence bore on me. My time on this planet is not without worth in my eyes because I have given it four of the greatest creations I was ever able to give. I truly love each and every one of you with every fiber of my being and if there is an afterlife, I will spend it cursing myself for leaving you four too early. I hope for you, most beloved of all that you understand and more importantly......forgive me for my failings. I have set this blog up so that you, whom I relay the address to can see....and learn this one final lesson I have to give.
I shall love you all for eternity......if there is such a thing.
R.
